I have to prepare something to get evaluated for my next phase in life. I just can't fathom starting all over, working for four or five years, saving a little cash, traveling, but......then I have to come back and do it again. There just has to be something I can do that is meaningful. I don't see how working for x amount of time and sacrificing privacy and comfort is going to lead to .......fulfillment?. THere has to be something else. I wish I had stayed longer where I went. I envy people who are so laid back in their attitudes toward life, travel, whatever. In other countries things are different, but in NYC people say, oh if I lose my job the world will come to an end.....and the most important thing in the world is being a good 9 to 5er. I really think American attitudes are different from those in Germany or Australia.....or maybe I'm generalizing. Sorry if I offend, I don't mean to, but people I have talked to from these places just don't have that "career focus" that people here have. Downtown where my gym and old job is, I see the women in their corporate outfits and designer shoes "dressed for success" and that's what I was raised with.......but I do that and all my time is spent, but I have to look decent, too. More and more I just can't fathom staying here and I don't see any hope here. I'm sorry, I wish it were otherwise. But I really think more and more, what am I doing in the US? So, I get a job, but then......That's not all there is. I'll be acting too, so that means work all day then rehearse at night, come home, clean, spend weekends cleaning, and I"ll burn out eventually, like I did at my last job. I'm going to have to face all these ugly things I don't want to. I really need help!!!!!!!!!!!!!! London, anyone? If there are jobs for me in the UK or Berlin, please tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!